"I Don't Even Recognize Him"

We're approaching the end of week two of D being away for treatment and I am overwhelmed and overjoyed to say... he is 100% medication free. *BRB, I need to wipe my tears and snot*  It has been my prayer and my medical request for him for years. The doctors we've been with in Little Rock have always said "it is too risky" to take him off meds. I've always felt in my heart that he was extremely over-medicated but I didn't feel I had the proper resources to detox him. Have you ever been extremely tired and therefore extremely moody? That is exactly how D was all the time. 

I received a call from his therapist yesterday and the first words out of his mouth were, "I don't even recognize him. Physically, even." My heart dropped as I instantly envisioned dark eyes and slumped posture. I felt hopeless. For a second. His therapist continued with, "He has a sparkle in his eye. He's smiling. He has color in his cheeks." *BRB tear and snot break again* D was on speaker phone and he chimed in with "MOM! I think so much now. I can't stop thinking!" We continued to have an hour long conversation. I've NEVER been able to keep him engaged in conversation more than a few minutes. I know God is not finished healing him and I may be getting ahead of myself by being so optimistic that he could possibly be medication free, forever. But I guess that's my job as a mom. 

I received this scripture in my Facebook inbox this morning: 

Psalm 27:13-14

13 

I remain confident of this:

    I will see the goodness of the Lord

    in the land of the living.

14 

Wait for the Lord;

    be strong and take heart

    and wait for the Lord. 

I've never been able to give things over to God. I've always been pretty stubborn and believed I can handle things on my own. Even this situation, I thought I was handling it. I am not. He is. He is really working my Faith and I'm learning to lean on Him.

Thank you for the support and please continue praying for D and for his Doctors.