I've really been struggling since my last post. My joy from D being medication-free is being grossly overshadowed by guilt and 'what-ifs". I can't help but wonder if all these years he was over-medicated and I allowed it. It's clear D does have a mental illness but WHAT IF if it isn't as severe as we thought? What if most of his aggression and mood swings were medication induced? I'm questioning the medical profession as a whole and myself as a mom.
My sweet friend Sarah told me these thoughts are just the Devil trying to steal my joy. I know I'm not a Dr, I'm just a mom... but WHAT IF?
you're not JUST a mom.
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